Christmas 2012

27 Dec

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Our Christmas was very enjoyable this year (but how can you not enjoy Christmas?).

I worked from home Monday and we left around 2:30 to drop our dogs off at a friend’s and head up to Estes Park (about 90 minutes away). It started snowing as we got into Estes Park and snowed 4-5 inches over the course of the night. We were sharing a condo with our friends and their 2 kids, so we talked for a while, cooked dinner, played Ticket to Ride (love that game!), and watched Elf.

The next morning, we opened the gifts we had brought (Travis and I brought our stockings that his mom packed to the brim) and then ate breakfast. After breakfast, we packed up and headed out into the snow.

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blendsgiving 021 (Large)We went to pick our dogs up and ate some cinnamon rolls with our friends. Then we headed home. We unpacked, tidied up, put our Christmas dinner in the crockpot and then opened presents. I got nice new headphones, baby bath stuff (hooded towels, washcloths and soap), $50 for a mani/pedi and… a Keurig coffee maker!

20121226_084005The coffee maker is for both me and Travis. We are really excited. We’ve already used it twice and love it. We used to make so much extra coffee (to get the blend right) so I think that even though the coffee will be more expensive than our Folgers, it’ll taste better and we’ll end up wasting less.

After presents, it was time to bum. We watched The Tourist and the rest of Downton Abbey Season 2, while enjoying the awesome surround sound and Blu-ray player that my parents gave us for Christmas. We are fans.

By then it was dinner time, so we ate our chicken wild rice soup and crescent rolls with some sparkling grape juice. Then we tried calling our families (unsuccessfully, though we did talk to mine a few hours later), started a puzzle and then watched The Bourne Legacy. I tried to stay awake but it was way past my bedtime.

We missed being with our families, but it’s really hard to not enjoy a relaxing Christmas just the two of us!

Pregnancy Update: 25 Weeks

24 Dec

25w 0dI finally caved and bought some more maternity clothes. I found another pair of jeans at the used maternity store and then found a bunch of stuff at Ross – I got 4 shirts, 2 tanks, a pair each of pants, shorts and leggings, and 2 sweaters for just under $90. It’s nice having some more options. And the maternity shorts I found for our Florida vacation were only $3! I love finding good (cute) deals.

This week also made me realize that my workouts will not be the same until after this baby comes. I did 20 minutes of Pilates on Saturday morning and could barely move that night! It didn’t feel like I was working out that hard, but I guess I was? So I’m thinking that my running jogging days might also be behind me. My morning exhaustion hasn’t made me want to go out jogging anyway. I’m perfectly content doing a video in my nice warm living room.

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My workouts this week:

Su: 1.55 mile walk

T: 20 min aerobics video + 10 min prenatal Pilates

W: 1.15 mile walk

Th: 1.15 mile walk

Sa: 20 minutes prenatal Pilates + 1.15 mile walk

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The most exciting thing about this past week has been that Emma is finally kicking up a storm! I feel her kick a bunch while I’m at work or sitting around, and Travis can even feel her kick from the outside. So fun! It’s a much more enjoyable feeling than the stomach churning I had before (though I’ve heard being kicked isn’t very comfortable the farther along you get).

I’m still having trouble sleeping – I don’t know if it’s that I’m not comfortable, or having weird dreams, or a combination. But it’s no fun. I am a complete zombie for the first couple of hours that I’m up each day.

Symptoms: baby kicks, acne, weird/random aches and pains

Cravings: CHOCOLATE. I have been wanting to eat sweets like there’s  no tomorrow.

Weight Gain: 17 lbs total (1 lb this week)

Favorite Moment: Feeling Emma kick!

Well, we’re off to Estes Park with some friends. Have a very Merry Christmas!!

 

Christmas Festivities

23 Dec

A couple of weeks ago, I got together with some friends from church to make Christmas ornaments. It was a lot of fun to see what everyone created!

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blendsgiving 002 (Large)My ornaments

blendsgiving 004 (Large)This past Thursday night, we went to Travis’ work Christmas party. He works for a really small company (there are 5 employees) so we had dinner at a nice restaurant. Since my maternity wardrobe is pretty limited and I didn’t really want to buy a dress just for this occasion, I just wore one of my typical work outfits. I also convinced Travis that since the dress code was semi-formal, he couldn’t wear jeans. He cleans up nicely. 😉

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My department at work didn’t have a Christmas party this year because there has been a lot of layoffs in the past couple of weeks and no one was in the Christmas mood. There hasn’t even been any treats in the break room! Very Grinch-like.

Then on Friday night, we had a Christmas party for leaders at our church (we lead the projection/lights team). We met at the church for hors d’oeuvres and then went to Too Hot to Handel in downtown Denver.

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I had been to Handel’s Messiah before and decided it wasn’t really my cup of tea, but this was a jazzy modern version of it and it was really good! We had a good time.

This morning, we had our Christmas celebration at church. I always enjoy the break from routine and hearing the adult and kids choirs sing. So fun!

Other things we’re enjoying this Christmas are our tiny little tree:

blendsgiving 005 (Large)It’s only 3 feet tall. Our ornaments don’t even all fit on it anymore!

downton abbeyMy boss let us borrow her copy of Downton Abbey Season 2. We’ve already watched 5 episodes. This show is so addicting!

What are you enjoying this Christmas?

Choosing Joy in Exhaustion

19 Dec

snoozeMy blog has kind of turned into a weekly pregnancy update and nothing more. What can I say? I would love to blog. I have time to blog. But I have nothing to blog about. The only reason why I blog once a week is because of the whole “counting down the weeks” thing. Otherwise, my brain is useless.

I partly blame being tired. For the past week or two, I get up early enough to spend some time reading the Bible but my mind just won’t engage. I zone out in front of my open Bible until I concede that it’s useless and either start getting ready early or use that time to take a mini nap. (Usually the latter.) I finally understand what it feels like to not be a morning person. You stumble around in a half-conscious daze for the first three hours you’re out of bed. By noon, you feel mostly normal.

When I’m tired, I let everything slide. Making the bed sounds like too much work. Cooking dinner – too much work. I have energy for one thing and one thing only: doing nothing. Even the things that I enjoy doing and am always glad for doing later, are still thrown out the window with the excuse, “But I’m sooooo tired.” 

I know you’re probably thinking, “She’s totally screwed when she actually has her baby.” I’ve had that same thought. And that has spurred me to the realization that I need to learn how to live tired. Not survive tired. Not make it through another day tired. LIVE tired.

As a human, I love comfort. I love ease. I run from struggle, challenge and difficulty (unless its one I have intentionally chosen, like running a marathon). Being tired brings this all into the forefront because it’s a constant “I don’t like this!” feeling. My natural tendency is to focus all my available energy on wishing I wasn’t tired and to heck with the rest.

But I don’t want to look back on any time in my life and see that I sacrificed all of my priorities because I was tired. I don’t want to wish away the first months of my daughter’s life with longing to not be tired. That’s allowing my circumstances to dictate my response. It’s me playing the self-pity card and refusing to contemplate anyone else’s needs but mine. It’s a waste of life.

As I thought about this Monday on my way to work, I was brought back yet again to this:

“Life change happens when we accept life with thanks and ask for nothing to change.” (Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts)

I can acknowledge that operating with insufficient sleep is challenging. It is challenging. But like with any other circumstance, I can rise above it and refuse to let it have the final say. I can determine my attitude instead of allowing my circumstances to do so. But it won’t just happen – I have to be intentional. With every moment, I have the option to choose ease or to choose joy.

I CHOOSE JOY.

And maybe an afternoon nap.

Pregnancy Update: 24 Weeks

17 Dec

20121216_092827I’m 24 weeks – only 16 to go! (FOUR MONTHS!)

I’m tired. ::said in a whiny voice:: My attitude hasn’t been the greatest recently. Being tired brings out the worst in me. Despite my amazing night of sleep on Thursday, the past couple of nights have been very un-restful. I wake up a lot, have weird vivid dreams and just generally don’t sleep well. But I am trying to look at this as a way to practice being joyful and thankful even when circumstances are challenging. It’s a lesson I definitely need to learn (and will use a lot when the baby comes I’m sure)!

I am grateful for all the stuff I got done this weekend. We finished Christmas shopping/present making and Travis shipped all of our gifts today. I printed our Christmas cards and should be able to finish addressing them tonight or tomorrow. Travis put up our icicle lights outside. We had an impromptu lunch with my cousin and cousin-in-law who happened to be visiting from Minneapolis. And we picked up our nursery glider!

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20121216_145759Travis approves. I LOVE how the chair turned out! It’s dark gray and SO comfy. Can’t wait to spend many, many hours in that chair. We also got the nursery arranged with all of the furniture, so I was finally able to get some of my stuff organized. That feels good.

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I stuck to my workout plan last week but didn’t run at all. I’m more motivated to go on a walk with the dogs after I’ve showered and woken up a bit.

M: 1.15 mile walk

T: 20 minutes prenatal aerobics + 10 minutes prenatal Pilates

W: 1.15 mile walk

Th: 30 minutes strength

F: 1.15 mile walk

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Symptoms: Poor sleep, linea negra, feeling out of breath a lot

Cravings: I really want frozen yogurt sometime soon. I still love potatoes. And I really like rice too.

Aversions: I really don’t like red pasta sauce right now.

Weight Gained: 16 lbs total (1 lb this week!) I intentionally ate more this week and it worked!

Favorite Moment This Week: One night, as I was laying in bed, Emma kicked me several times in a row – with very noticeable kicks! That was cool. I’m looking forward to that happening more.

What I Miss: My old wardrobe. I need to buy some maternity tanks, since my long pre-pregnancy ones are finally getting too short.

Looking Forward To: A relaxing Christmas! Childbirth classes in January. And the month of February – between a baby shower and our trip to Florida, it’s going to be a fun month.

 

 

If she was born today…

15 Dec

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Today I am 23 weeks 6 days. What would happen if our baby girl was born today?

The Tampa Bay Times just ran a 3-part special about Juniper, a baby girl born at this stage of gestation – what they call a micro preemie.

Even if you’re not a mom, or pregnant, it’s an amazing story that will make you cry.

Read it.

{I can’t help but see the pictures of little Juniper and think, “That’s what I have in my belly right now! A little human!” But I am also so very, very grateful for each day that she stays in my belly, and doesn’t have to fight for her life on the outside like Juniper.}

Random Friday

14 Dec

1. The school shooting in Connecticut is devastating and tragic. My heart goes out to all those affected, especially those young impressionable kids who witnessed the shootings and the kids whose lives were ended way too soon. There aren’t words.

2. I read in a childbirth book that one way of predicting your due date is to take the day you felt your baby’s first kick and add 5 months. Though I have only felt about 2 real kicks so far, the first was on November 9. Add 5 months and you have April 9 (just 2 days past my estimated due date). Interesting…

3. Since I’m not supposed to have cold deli subs like I’m craving, I got the next best thing for lunch today: a Veggie Guacamole sub from Quizno’s. It was a 15 minute drive from work each way but so totally worth it. Made even better by a side of Salt & Vinegar chips (my absolute favorite).

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4. I slept like a rock last night. Usually I wake up every couple of hours to shift positions (and drag my body pillow to the other side of me) but not last night. I probably slept in some pretty uncomfortable positions but was so completely out that I didn’t even care. And best of all, the dogs didn’t bark at the milk man for once! Usually they give us a heart attack at about 1 am (but only once a week).

5. I’m hoping to knock out quite a bit of Christmas “to-do’s” this weekend (buying and mailing presents, printing and mailing Christmas cards, etc) so that I can spend the next week and a half just enjoying the season!

6. My family has finally decided on where to go for our Florida vacation in February! We’re staying in a VRBO property in Siesta Key on the Gulf side. I’m so excited! And I’m praying that my pregnancy continues to be uneventful so that I can go. I’ll be 33/34 weeks by then! (My doctor said I could travel until 36 weeks, barring any complications.)

7. This past Monday night, Travis and I set up the crib in the nursery and hung the curtains. We’ll do more once we get the glider in there this Sunday. Hopefully I’ll have some pictures for you on Monday!

Pregnancy Update: 23 Weeks

10 Dec

IMG_4081_cropThis past weekend was a busy one. Friday night, Travis and I did some Christmas shopping after work.

On Saturday, I volunteered at another one of my friend’s races, the Fa La La 5K and 5M, which went well. Immediately after that, I headed home, changed and went to our church’s annual Women’s Christmas Tea. Over 200 women attended this year. It was crazy, but nice to see how the event has grown. Needless to say, I was so tired after the race that I didn’t feel much like socializing. I chatted with the ladies at my table and then went straight home afterward. After straightening things up a bit, Travis and I watched The Vow. I really liked that movie and cried quite a bit.

Sunday, Travis and I went to Panera before church. We’re trying to restart that tradition as much as we can before the baby comes. After church, we went to Babies R Us to look at carseats and strollers (Travis wanted to make sure he liked the ones I had picked out) and all the cute baby girl clothes! We bought some cute little bootie socks:

IMG_4096We’re waiting until after any baby showers to buy clothes, since that is the thing people love to buy the most (as I’ve observed from the 15 or so baby showers of friends that I’ve been to).

Then I got a prenatal massage, which was lovely. I have never liked having my feet massaged so much. After that, we worked on Christmas presents for a while (we’re making some this year) and then watched Harry Potter: The Deathly Hallows Part 1 (we’re watching the whole Harry Potter series). I, like always, fell asleep during it so I’ll have to finish it up when Travis isn’t home. Since I read the books, I already know what happens but it’s fun watching the movies anyway.

Speaking of sleep, it has gone downhill a little more this week. I have to pee at least once every night, sometimes more. There were a few nights this week when I also had to get up and eat something because I was starving. They were nights that I had light dinners though, so I just need to be more intentional about having a snack before going to bed. And another not-so-nice development is that I have this pain at the top of my belly, right where my bra hits, that feels like a bruise or muscle tear. For a while, I’d have it at night and then it would go away during the day. But now, I have it at night and during the day. I think it’s just pain from things stretching out but I’ll ask my doctor about it during my appointment at the end of the month.

I’ve also noticed that my hips start to ache after laying on my side for so long at night. I still regularly wake up to find myself either sleeping on my back or my stomach. I roll to my side right away but I think it’s my body’s way of saying “Ok, enough already” to the whole side sleeping thing. I just found out today that my glider came in so maybe I’ll try sleeping in that instead of my bed… 😉 We’re going to go pick the chair up this weekend!

Another somewhat strange thing is that I didn’t gain any weight this past week either. I guess that’s my golden ticket to eating more!

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I have finally gotten into a workout routine that I can stick with! Here was last week:

Su: 1.15 mile walk

M: 1.15 mile walk

T: 30 min prenatal Pilates

W: 2 mile wog

Th: 20 min strength (Denise Austin Fit n Firm Pregnancy DVD)

F: 1.15 mile walk

It feels great to be moving on a regular basis again, even if my lack of good sleep at night makes getting up early extremely hard.

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Symptoms: Belly pain, trouble sleeping

Cravings: Still deli subs, potatoes and wine. I cheated yesterday and had a non-toasted Tasty Turkey from Einstein’s. It was delicious.

Weight gain: 15 lbs

Favorite moment this week: Getting a surprise gift from Travis’ parents – a picture frame to hold an ultrasound!

What I Miss: I’m a broken record but I miss sleeping on my stomach, drinking alcohol and getting a good workout.

What I’m Looking Forward to: Getting our nursery glider and setting up the nursery more this weekend. (Ok, I know I said baby stuff would wait until after Christmas, but it’s seriously bugging me to have the room in disarray!)

 

Repost: The Passion of Christmas

6 Dec

I’ve been listening to Christmas songs on KOSI 101.1 and discovered that I absolutely LOVE Josh Groban. Normally, I hate vibrato in singing (like opera) but he has an amazing voice. I can’t get over it. Anyway, a song they play a lot is his version of O Holy Night. And every time it comes on, I turn it up and just soak in the lyrics. In my opinion, it is one of the best songs ever written – because it captures the meaning of Christmas so succinctly AND has an amazing chorus. I included the lyrics below.

While I was writing about Christmas song lyrics, I thought I’d repost my thoughts about Christmas from last year. Enjoy.

First posted December 24, 2011

I love listening to Christmas music – not just because it puts me in the Christmas mood, but also because it floods my heart with the meaning of Christmas. This year, I am captivated by the passion behind historical Christmas hymns. The authors of these songs exhort us to adore Christ, fall on our knees before Him, and praise His name forever. They write of a world, weary under the burden of sin and guilt, that sees a new day, filled with hope, dawn with the birth of a simple babe. The Savior has come, the catalyst of God’s plan of redemption.

I like to imagine what it would have been like the night Jesus was born. Four hundred years had passed since God has spoken to His people. But God had promised a Messiah, a Redeemer. All of Israel was waiting for the Christ. And on that night in a little town of Bethlehem, a town “too little to be among the clans of Judah,” the long-awaited Messiah was born. Humble shepherds were at work in the field, watching their flocks in the moonlight, straining to stay awake. All of a sudden, they were blinded by “the glory of the Lord” and an angel told them,

“Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of a great joy that will be for all the people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord…”

So what did they do? They went “with haste” to where the angel had indicated – to Bethlehem to find a baby wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger. This is what I find interesting: the Bible doesn’t say anything about them locking their sheep up first, or arranging for their care, or one of them staying behind. It seems that they just leave their flocks in the open field because they are so amazed and excited about what they were just told.

Does that go against common sense? Do I doubt that’s what actually happened?

Yes, because it seems so impractical, so irresponsible. I am challenged – what would I have done in that situation? Would I have been so consumed with responsibilities and practical concerns that I would think it foolish to abandon all and sit at my Savior’s feet? Would I be so captivated by Christ’s coming that I’d be willing to drop everything – abandon even my livelihood – and seek Him?

It’s easy to rest when there’s nothing pressing, nothing urgent. It’s easy to take a moment to breath when life’s tight grip on your schedule relaxes for an hour. But what about resting and breathing in the midst of the chaos? That’s what Christ came to bring us – His rest, a deep soul rest that can’t be touched by circumstances. What does it mean to have a deep soul rest in Christ?

Embracing the messiness of being human. Jesus Himself was born in a stinky stable surrounded by loud animals (not the serene night of perfect harmony pictured above). He slept on itchy, pokey hay and grew up as a pretty normal kid. Christ didn’t just experience what it meant to be human during His ministry. He lived his whole life as a human. He grew up with brothers and sisters as a human. He learned to walk, to talk, to laugh. He loved, he cried, he gave. “In every way he was tempted just as we are, yet without sin.” I love how Jesus embraced humanity – not just by becoming a baby (though that was big enough) but by also engaging in life. He wasn’t just alive – He lived. He didn’t view the basics of human existence as beneath Him – rather, He embraced those constraints. Instead of them getting in His way, He turned them into a source of blessing.

And all this, when He was the Son of God, the Most High, the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, Author of Creation.

Pondering these truths, how can your heart not fill to bursting with the truth of Christmas?

O Holy Night (sung by Josh Groban)

O holy night!
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night
Of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till he appear’d and the soul felt His worth
A thrill of hope
The weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks
A new and glorious morn!
Fall on your knees
Oh hear the angel voices
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine, oh night, oh night divine

Chains shall He break
For the slave is our brother
And in His name all oppression shall cease
Sweet hymns of joy
In grateful chorus raise we
Let all within us praise His holy name
Christ is the Lord, let ever ever praise Thee
Noël, Noël
Oh night, Oh night divine
Noël, Noël
Oh night, Oh night divine
Noël, Noël
Oh, oh night, oh night divine

Dealcoholized grape juice

4 Dec

Last Friday on my way home, I stopped at the liquor store near our house to see if they had non-alcoholic wine. In hindsight, this was probably not the liquor store to go to for this – almost all of their wine bottles have a decent amount of dust on them and I’m not sure they’re high enough quality to be made better with age.

Anyway, they did have non-alcoholic wine. Well, technically it was called dealcoholized wine. Same thing right?

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I looked around to see if there were any other options, but it was just these two. I brought them up to the register and the Asian man that is always working when I go in looked at my selection and immediately tried to discourage me from buying them by saying, “It’s no good.”

“Really? Well, I’m going to try it anyway, since I’m pregnant and desperate,” I replied.

“There’s no alcohol,” he insisted.

“I know. I’m pregnant so that’s kind of the point.”

“Ok. I only charge you for this one,” he said pointing to one of the bottles.

“You’re only going to charge me for one bottle? It’s that bad, huh?”

“I special ordered for a guy and then he moved away. It’s no good,” he explained.

“Yeah, it looks like they’ve been sitting there for a while.”

I signed the receipt for $5.91 and left with my bottles of dealcoholized wine.

I got home and opened the bottle of red. It smelled rancid.

Hesitant, I poured a small glass. It didn’t smell any better out of the bottle.

I took a sip. Ok, not as horrible as I feared. Travis smelled it. Nasty. He sipped it. It doesn’t taste as bad as it smells.

I didn’t give up right away. But after 4-5 more sips, I finally decided, This is disgusting. No self-respecting person who enjoys wine would drink this.

So I poured the bottle out.

The bottle of white is still sitting in my fridge unopened. Maybe this weekend I’ll drum up the courage to try it.

Anyway, I guess when the owner of a dive liquor store tries to dissuade you from buying something, you should listen.

Travis had asked about non-alcoholic wine at another liquor store and the owner said, “You know what non-alcoholic wine is, right? Grape juice.”